May 19, 1999
Let me start by saying that yes, I am a copycat. My best bud Kathe (with Kathe-dots) gave me the idea to post an internet diary with her "My So-Called Existence" (MSCE) and now I am following in her footsteps. The name I have picked for my diary is Shrew’s News. Cheesy, huh? My boyfriend Stuart is into rhyming things, so he should approve of this choice. The ultimate purpose of my webpage is to inform viewers what is going on in my life, and what better way to do that than through personal thought? Thanks Kathe! Even though I only have two summer classes I can’t expect to be able to post entries very often. Not that my life is all that interesting, but if you saw the amount of reading I have to do for class you would understand. So this is the foundation for my internet diary – searching for the truth and seeing what else comes along on the way.
I just got back from the University of Florida computer lab. I got an email from an Air Force Academy cadet that I will venture to call a friend, that disturbed me greatly. As I was walking home, a trip that takes about ten minutes, I came to a conclusion: if there is one constant in this world it is adversity. In the email I received my friend told me that he was tired of my bad opinion of ex-boyfriends. Now you can draw your own conclusions about what my opinion is, but I do look back at some of my past relationships with a bit of disgust. Who doesn’t? I think I can safely say that most women have bad opinions of ex-boyfriends (in general) because they have had bad experiences with their own. Does this seem reasonable? I do not wish to make my friend the bad guy in this situation because he is entitled to HIS opinions as much as I am entitled to mine. Nor do I wish to make myself into the oppressed embodiment of all that is good. I am certainly no angel. In fact, Stuart calls me the “devil child” and I have a great keychain that states “I only LOOK sweet and innocent.” Anyway I am sure I must have said something offensive that struck a nerve with my friend, but I don’t think he was justified with his violent response. Feel free to agree with me! Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
In the past I don’t think I have expressed my opinions as freely as I should have. Before now I have felt intimidated by opinionated people and rarely did I oppose them for that reason. Everyone should be able to say what they think, but in a way that does not degrade any particular person for their beliefs. My friend was perfectly warranted to have his bad ideas about me, but I think that when he sent a nasty email he crossed the line from standing up for what he believes and attacking an individual needlessly. Let me remind you that I don’t deny doing the same thing from time to time. If there is one thing that I hate in this world it is a hypocrite, and I cringe when admitting I am guilty of being what I hate. Situation such as this one that I encountered today open my eyes to the world. After today I will be more careful in what I say because I don't want to repeat the mistake made by others.
Ah, Florida in the summertime. The soaring temperatures, the stifling humidity, and the unpredicatbale afternoon thundershowers. Can you tell I just got back from class and it was raining all the way? It is 5:30 PM and the sky is dark grey with rain clouds. It looks like we have a moist evening to look forward to.
In other news my roommate Brandy has already been to see "Star Wars: The Phantom Menace" which starts today in Gainesville. Stuart is probably sitting in the theater right now watching it, and my other roommate Liesl just left for a later show. What's wrong with this picture? I am the one who watched the original trilogy everyday as a child! I am the one who knows all of the old movies practically by heart! And I am the one who has tickets for Friday night at 7 PM. The system is corrupt. That and the fact that I didn't go out and buy tickets as soon as they went on sale. Due to the fact that I have class at 9:30 AM and 3:30 PM, which kind of breaks up the day. (By the way, it is raining again - hard this time.) Oh well. "The Phantom Menace" will wait for me, I guess. Stuart says that the movie won't change between now and then, but I have my suspicions. Too bad I will have to walk around with my ears covered until 7 PM Friday unless I want to know the ENTIRE plot before I go to the movie! The price you pay for inactivity is mighty high these days. I will have to find some other way to amuse myself while my apartment is empty. I guess I could laugh at the people who are waiting outside in the rain for the movie now, but I sincerely wish I could be one of them right now. *sigh*